A month apart. It may not seem like that long, but it was enough for me to miss you. In fact, I missed you before you even left. It’s strange because I can go days, weeks, even months without seeing some of my closest friends and family members, yet the absence of you trumps them all.

I would be lying if I said that I haven’t been hoping this month would fly by. That being said, I do genuinely hope your time away was fun, exciting, and most importantly, meaningful. I know how much this trip meant to you. This was not just any vacation, but in fact a reunion between you, your family, and the place you grew up. I am thrilled you got the opportunity to spend quality time with the people and place that shaped you into the woman you are today. I am lucky enough to be with that woman, and so it is only fitting that I thank your friends and family back in Cebu for raising a wonderful woman. I look forward to one day travelling with you to Cebu to meet all of your friends and family members.

I hope that for the next few days, you enjoy and appreciate your time in Cebu. I will be waiting at home for you, and I promise to make up for the time we spent away from each other. I really care for you Iris Kimberly, and I do love you.

With love always,

Christian Anthony

How am I supposed to know right now

How these colours sound, I’m blind and deaf somehow

As I lay beneath the stars you shine

I’m under candle light, can you tell me is this right

And if I, say this

Will you ever hear me

And If I, say this

Can you really hear me

I guess I’m trying to figure out what I’m going to do with my life. I have so many things I want to do, and I can imagine the life I want, but it’s the getting there that scares me. I see my future—at least the one that I want—the pieces are all there, but certain things need to connect for it to all happen, and unfortunately that all takes time. I can be patient, but when you know what it is you want, time tends to become a chore. Someone I know told me not to be scared, and I believe them, I really do. I’m going to stay confident and just hope that things unfold as they should.

Life moves fast, too fast if you ask me. The question is, how do you slow it down? I wish life was like writing, and through the incorporation of punctuation, we could slow it down. I could add commas to take a breath, or add periods to freeze a moment. Life would be far simpler if it were like writing. The only conclusion I can come to is, that the people we surround ourselves with, are our punctuation. They provide excitement, questions, and at times can even make time slow down. It is the people you surround yourself with who add definition to the writing that is your life. So when you find someone who helps you write your life story, hold on to them.

Listen here baby, we got all night

I can take my time, and do you right

We can take it slow, use my hands baby

I can make you moan, or just maybe

we can go fast, as I pull your hair

Kiss your lips, with that tender lovin’ care

Kiss on your neck, and squeeze your thighs

Our bodies move, to the music of our sighs

Because,

We’ll be making love, yeah, yeah

We’ll be moving right, yeah, yeah

All through the night, yeah, yeah

We’ll be making love till the morning light

I kind of want to try stand up comedy. I have always wanted to try—as I love to make people laugh—but my fear of rejection and failure prohibit me from trying. What I would love to do is meet a famous comedian—Dave Chappelle would be amazing—and tell them my jokes to see if they find it funny. Perhaps they could even perform the jokes. I would have no problem writing jokes for other people.

My world is all dry,

Since you went away,

How you left that day.

Oh I just can’t believe,

Got me missing you,

If you only knew. 

Oh all that I can say,

Is that I do,

Really love you.

Oh baby, got me wondering

How you came and, turned my world around

But now you, got me stuttering

Got you leaving, turned me upside down

I am debating on becoming a vegetarian. The thing is, I love eating meat, I am just against the industrialization of meat. I think that there are a lot of negative consequences due to the industrialization of meat. This billion dollar industry has negatively impacted our health, environment, economy and also our empathy—as the treatment of these animals is often inhumane.  

I am still torn though. While I am against all this, I don’t know if I can give up meat entirely. I love eating meat, and it would be very difficult for me to give it up. I am not sure what exactly I should do. Perhaps I will eat less meat. I don’t know, I wish there was a cheap and convenient alternative. 

We’ve almost made it. It’s not a huge achievement—or even a notable milestone—yet, I still feel the need to celebrate. You’ve been gone for 16 days now, and so, we are officially halfway there. In 15 more days, you’ll be back and it will be as if you never left. Actually, I take it back. It will be better than when you left, because if time apart showed me anything, it showed me how amazing you are, and how happy/lucky I am to have you. I wish you all the best Iris Kimberly, and I cannot wait to see you again. Have fun and enjoy the remainder of your vacation.

With Love Always,

Christian Anthony

Music never sounded, so beautiful

And colours have never been, so bright

Time has never been, so wonderful

Holding you all through the night.

And I’ll hold, on to you

I’ll hold on to this moment tonight

And I just, wanna love you

I wanna love you all through the night